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Lost, and God Knows it.

by on Sep.27, 2010, under Gene, On my mind, Spiritual

The distance we have fallen away from God and away from who were created to be is far greater than we think. We want to believe we are “just a little messed up.. but not too bad.  sure we make mistakes but fundamentally we’re ok”.
I have changed my opinion..  I think we were and are truly lost. And God knows it. I have been being led toward this thinking more and more as I move toward God. My own sin awareness increases as I approach Him. He is Holy, something we are not. I used to spend tons of time hiding my sin from Him ( and others ) but now I want to give them all too Him. I crave Holiness. I crave Him. This is where my words fail me. I want to describe how I am drawn toward His beauty, His purity and Holiness., but I can’t really. But I can say it’s different than before.. my heart is tender before Him.. His love for me is real and getting realer.
But I know His love never changes, it’s me that has changed, He has changed me.
What did I do in all this?  I died. I surrendered. If I need to die more, please Jesus, help me die more. If I need to surrender more or again.. please Jesus, help me surrender more.
There is a battle… but how strange.. my victory is actually total surrender !
The delusion that says “I am fine, just a little messed up but really ok” wants to return to me. It’s a lie from the father of lies. I need Jesus every moment. It’s why He says it plainly, I am the vine, you are the branches. Stay connected to Me. I am your life, without me you can do nothing! Without the living connection, we are separated from our Savior, our life.
The distance we fell is greater than I thought. I am more messed up than I thought.
But His love is bigger than I thought. Way bigger. I may be lost on a distant and forbidding planet, but I have been bought and rescued. He has now promised to “lead” me. Why not just get me out of here ?
Why has He left me here ? I am purchased..I am rescued.. why not take me out of this mess ?
There can be only one reason. To tell our other lost brothers and sisters that they can be rescued too.
Another truth that remains. Yes, I am rescued but not completely restored to what I was created to be. We are blind children in need of direction. Jesus is the light that will keep us on the path and keep us sensing the Love He has for us. He will keep us “on task”, we are to stay connected. Are very lives depend on it.
It sounds overly dramatic when you say it out loud but thats exactly the truth.
This is one dependancy we are not to get over.
There is only one way, Jesus is it.. there is only one truth, Jesus is it.. and only one life.

Isaiah 42:16 But I’ll take the hand of those who don’t know the way, who can’t see where they’re going. I’ll be a personal guide to them, directing them through unknown country. I’ll be right there to show them what roads to take, make sure they don’t fall into the ditch. These are the things I’ll be doing for them— sticking with them, not leaving them for a minute.”

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Late Summer Rain

by on Sep.22, 2010, under Gene, On my mind, Poetry

Late Summer Rain

Like tears of the Father from heaven falling

on an unknowing earth for His children.. the strong summer rain.

Through tears and rain new life is found and nourished.

Then the thunder rolls..

His justice is coming.

Swift and powerful, driven by invisible winds.

A rainbow to follow..

Beauty in light..

a foreshadow of splendor unimagined,

in time unmeasurable,

in Love perfected.

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Time Cut Short

by on Sep.19, 2010, under Cambodia, Gene, On my mind, Spiritual

I took this picture while visiting a Cambodian village. This young woman is married. Her husband is off in the city trying to get a job. She is living with her dad. She had just lost a child.

Trouble is relative.. I guess.

Sometimes God wants to do something new….

This is something new for me.. poetry. I have never given poetry much thought. This just happened. I have learned to expect the unexpected when I give myself time to be with God.

Time Cut Short

Father, do not cut short the time.

my days I would shorten, to be with you

and lessen the pain..

but I remember… I am not alone.

The not so distant and distant cries arrive in my ears

at the same time…

They, we are all your children.. you hear everyone.

Tempted to camp in my incompleteness..

It seems departure the better choice

Disappointment to self, to others

to much to bare.

But there they are..

stretched out in both directions

time past and time future

but to you all the same

and I agree with You again..

not one lost who would be saved..

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